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Ryan and I are celebrating our first Christmas this year. This is exciting and at the same time feels a little strange.

It's a bizarre awakening to adulthoood when you get married. It's hard to grow up and be responsible for yourself and your significant other. At times, it's difficult for me to understand that I'm not 10 years old anymore and that I have to start acting like an adult. And then I usually wonder what adults act like..

The other day, Ryan and I were talking with a friend/counselor we meet with once a month. We were discussing our feelings and frustrations about the church we are currently attending. I asked her if it was too idealistic to expect that we would ever find what we were looking for in a community of people. I really liked her response and felt sort of stupid for never realizing it myself. She basically told us (not in these exact words) that we're never going to find what we're looking for in a group of people aka. a church unless we find it in ourselves first.

DUH.

So, I guess thats apart of growing up. You create your own life in a way. And that all makes sense. You become the community you've always wanted to find.

I'll leave you with a photo of our first Chrstmas tree